This is the dimension of imagination.

Welcome to my sandbox!

I'm Merc Rustad, a robot velociraptor in disguise. I write things, attend college (film major),  watch lots and lots of movies, read stuff, and play video games.

My pronouns are they/them/their.

I'm on Twitter: @Merc_Rustad

And you can find a list of my published fiction here.

Next stop...the Twilight Zone.
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I post, I live, I post again! WITNESS ME

Or, you know, not post forever. >.>


I've got a behind-the-scenes album on FB, which has all kinds of spoilers and hilarious crew photos, and also an official page for What Monsters Hide Beneath with a production stills album! If you're curious what I've been doing the past 2.5 months. (Answer: filming. Lots and lots of filming.)

Let's see, on the writing front... since last post, I have written three flash stories, one slightly longer story (these get their own posts later), worked on a SPACE NOVEL outline, tweeted a lot, SOLD SOME THINGS OMG (more later), had a poem published in Apex , , outlined more things, generally scrounged a little brain for wording now and again.

I've also played so much Mass Effect, and Dragon Age, and Mass Effect. BioWare has me emotionally compromised on so many levels, I cannot even.

I haven't slept much (or else I sleep all the time, I'm not sure) and have been in a yo-yoing state of 'excited to do things!/OH GOD SO STRESSED *hides in despair*' almost constantly the last three months and...let's say mental health could be a lot better. (Dr appointment tomorrow, at least.)

BUT ANYWAY. FALL IS HERE, GUYS. I can wear sweatshirts again! And SOON WINTER HATS. (Soooo looking forward to pulling out my monster hats. ^_^)

Also I'm almost done with principle photography for my capstone film, what is happening.

*buzzes around on a sugar-high*

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CONvergence and stuff

So I went to CONvergance 2015, a con here in the Twin Cities. It was...big. It's only my second-ever con so I was definitely overwhelmed. Went to a couple panels, which were all good, and wandered around in costume for a bit. That was about all I could handle. (I'm very happy at least half a dozen people recognized who I was! And that the few others to whom I explained Zenpool seemed to get why it was hilarious, because they were familiar with Deadpool*.)

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So the beginning of last week (all of last week? WHERE HAS TIME GONE) I was building the costume, and then there were production meetings and emails and paperwork and avoiding holidays and stuff. SO MUCH STUFF. I changed my work schedule and have been planning out my entire summer based on which days I'm filming (and there are a LOT, and also I am excited as hell about this movie I'm making, you guys--SO EXCITED. There will have to be a sperate, offical blog post!)

It's been mostly a blur, admittedly. On the bright side, I sold a story! TO A VERY COOL MARKET. More on that when I can announce it publically. And I have reprints coming out as well! AND ALSO I WROTE WORDS, somehow, I'm not even sure how I did that. But I managed a flash fic for a Codex contest and I'm rather pleased with it.

And I'm almost finished with my second playthrough of the Mass Effect games because who needs sleep, amirite?

So...yeah. It has been a week. Possibly more. I'm still so wiped from the con and all the things that I can't even keep track of what happened when or what I was doing. >.>

(I don't think I've read my LJ/DW in over two weeks, either. o.O)

Anyway. Forward!


(*Not sure how many of my peeps are familiar with the Deadpool comics, but as you may have noticed, I am a HUGE fan. Zenpool is Deadpool with his moral axis flipped, so instead of being chaos, he becomes an agent of peace for the Axis storyline. (Then of course goes back to being regular Deadpool.) The weird thing about the con was that I did not see ANY Deadpool costumes. o.O It seems like every con I see pics of has one or more? Which kind of disappointed me, because I really wanted a pic with another Deadpool. Ah well. Maybe for Halloween!)


Hai guys. I'm still around! Just, you know, mostly on Twitter or akf. Mass Effect trilogy has EATEN MY BRAIN. That and mid-terms.

I have admittedly avoided LJ/DW a little more than I expected when I realized un-responded-to-comments were still there and I was stressing over that. So, with apologies to everyone, I'm calling blanket amnesty on all previous comments. I'm sorry I can't reply/read them. I really appreciate comments, I love to see those notifications! Don't get me wrong. It's just--the backlog is creating too much stress and my MH is a bit shaky, so I need to allow myself to be able to say 'it's okay, we can start fresh.' And going forward I am going to try to stay on top of it.


What else has been going on? Let me make a list.

- I have new stories out! It's exciting. (link to website because I'm too lazy to copy/paste all my code for links and such over here)

- I helped make a movie over a weekend! (horror comedy; I was officially director of photography/gaffer, and unofficially line-producer and do-anything-we-needed-done-on-set, including taking over the direction and choreography for a massacre scene (our director, hilariously enough, is not a big fan of horror--so she mostly took care of the non-bloody scenes and I handled the carnage scenes. it worked out! and yes there will be more news of this closer to release in late August. For those who are on FB, I have a bunch of production photos for the curious)

- I've spent well over 40 hrs working on a 2D animatic for a project, and on the bright side I'm getting the hang of Illustrator and a tiny grasp on After Effects. (It'll be done Weds. *sweatdrop*)

- OH YEAH I'M MAKING ANOTHER MOVIE IN A WEEK AND A HALF, WHAT. (drama! about monsters! dude, prepro is kicking my ass on this one.)

- I WROTE A THING. (April was pretty much a wash in terms of words. I did nothing. So today I drafted a story! New post for that.)

- Did I mention I'm stuck in the black hole that is the Mass Effect Trilogy? Because I am. Halfway through 3. I have no heart left. IT HAS BEEN UTTERLY DESTROYED BY THIS GAME. (And don't worry about spoilers, I already made my sister--who has played it numerous times--tell me exactly what happens to everyone because I could not take the emotional pressure and OH MY GOD BIOWARE WHY. *sob*)

- possibly other things happened and I cannot think any more tonight. Oh yeah, watched Daredevil (liked it), watched Avengers 2 (liked it), did I mention how freaking long it takes to play a trilogy of ME games...


Okay. That's all I got atm. How are you all? *hands out cookies*

"Where Monsters Dance"

Delighted to announce my dark fairy tale-esque lesbian fantasy is live at Inscription Magazine!


"Where Monsters Dance"


(Content warning: domestic violence, transphobia.)


This is a story very dear to my cyborg heart and I'm thrilled it's found a great home. (I'm working on a story notes post for this one.) I hope you enjoy!

"Finding Home" and "Exponentially Hoping"

So, I'm still very behind with updates & responses. But I do have things to share!

The first issue of Vitality Magazine is out! I have a story in this called "Finding Home," about traveling through alternate realities. It's a love story, and it's also about family and identity. It's unabashedly positive SF. :)


(The gorgeous cover art is by Alex Garcia.)

It's available digitally and in print! Super gorgeous interior illustrations as well, and so many delightful stories about queer characters. I do hope you'll check it out. :)


Other piece of news: author Jim C. Hines has been hosting a series of guest blog posts about diversity and representation. I had a post to kick it off, "Exponentially Hoping," about the need for non-binary representation in fiction and media. It's a very raw and personal essay, but I'm quite proud of it. (You can also read the rest of the guest posts--all excellent.)

Potentially more shiny things to report later--I hope you are all well!


I have a backlog of comments I would like to respond to, but have not had the spoons recently. Sorry. (If you suddenly see replies to months-old comments, well. >.> It could happen!)

some talk about depression and dr visits (it"s good news, tho)Collapse )It will be a slow and challenging road, I know, but I took the first big step and I have wonderful people to help and support me and it's kind of amazing. :) 

(comments are on, but don't expect a fast reply--I'm conserving spoons.)
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